Sunday, January 27, 2013

Saturday, January 5, 2013


And THIS is why I stay the course:

I found this video, and a whole slew of other things things that I will be immersing myself in today here at Interest Led Learnings, top 50 list 2012.
Have fun!

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

right now.

I have not felt the pull to write anything here.
At all.
 I feel no guilt about it. I am just doing stuff off line, and that is a really great thing. I still don't know what this space will evolve into, but I do know it must change or die.
I instagram when I want.
I FB when I want.
I tweet when I want.
I pinterest when I want.
I post here when I want.
I seem to be off my computer. I am doing more stuff with my kids.
Their stuff.
Even if my kids are on their computers, I am enjoying watching them. I used to let them do their stuff but we did not truly connect over it.
Sure they love it, but I did not experience that love.
But I am now.
When they say Mom, come and look at this house, or my crops, and I see how happy they are of this great thing that they have created. I am truly in awe of how complicated a set up my almost 8 and 10 year old have created. They are so happy that I am impressed.
I kind of get it now.
We hold hands, and they tell me all these crazy creeper and tobuskus ( sp?) stories. I now play Slender with them.
 I scream too, and they laugh with me.
It is awesome.
Marlin and I are connecting over the books that she is devouring. I mean in the sense that she is reading 426 pages in two days.
Hunger Games done.
 Harry Potter half way done.
 Divergent series probably tomorrow.
In a month!
A single month.
She loves pinterest, and instagram, and has taught me a trick or two..
It used to be different. They did their stuff, I did mine.
I didn't get it.
I missed out.
I used to pop in and out. Always thinking about this space, a draft, an idea, partly to preserve memories, partly to keep an audience. I had my little voice here to spout what I felt was my truth. Share my life. I just don't feel that drive anymore. I love my life, and my truth very much, but I want to covet it, savor it. I don't want to show and tell so much. I am not saying that is all that blogging is, at all. I know some passionate bloggers, and writing is an outlet really.
But it never was for me.
 I need a camera, not a keyboard. My energy here to put words to my pictures, is better used elsewhere in my life. I don't really need the words, the story is there in my pictures, shown more beautifully than I ever will be able to convey
I am becoming something else.
I want to focus on love.
On what makes my family happy.
On what makes me happy.
Maybe it's because I am approaching 40 or something, but I don't want to be the observer or documenter any more. I want to be the immersed, the participant. If I am here reliving my yesterdays,  I am not really in the right now.
I won't forget this. I have my snapshots.
I am loving the right now, right now.