Actually this week went by so fast, I can't believe it's the weekend already.
Happens like that now and then.
We are still having a crappy summer weather wise. There have been a few decent days.
This was one of them.
We had a nice playdate with a whole gaggle of friends, did some art, and skateboard ramp stuff.
2 of the bathrooms smell like pee. I can't find the source, I have bleached, wiped, scrubbed. Can't figure it out.
Look at the puppy.
It's hard not to eat her.
She is kind of a tricked out dog. Doing really well with the house training. She knows how to sit, lie down, give paw and is currently mastering the beginnings of roll over. We are wanting play dead ( BANG!) and beg. Bet she'll do it!
Chicks are getting big. They are currently outside now in a rabbit hutch. Soon they'll be with the big chickens. About 5 more months untill we see an egg.
I wonder how many roosters there will be?
Look at E's belly.
Quite the scene of mayhem and death.
See the mauled seals blood wafting up to the shark?
M got her retainer.
Kind of exciting.
She is obsessed with the fact that it needs to be in for 12 hours.
Grandpa came over tonight to celebrate his birthday!
He brought chocolate ice cream cake!
Well anyway, it's been a weird week. Perpetual house cleaning, with not a lot of progress. Lots of time with the puppy, and playing around outside. Me realizing that summer is nearly over and I feel cheated.
Our good friends Julie and Ryan are leaving, moving away.
It'll be good for them.
I know we will visit, stay in touch.
But it won't be the same.
I have a feeling it'll be a long winter.
My kids are all about workbooks and math this week. I find it rather amusing. It's totally on their terms, they stop when they please, don't do it for a week, sometimes finish one book in 2 days. Sometimes when they are bored or arguing, I will mention some bookwork, they get excited to do them.
I guess it is fun and challenging when it's on your own terms and not mandatory.
I have had conflicted feelings about unschooling. Not in a doubting way. But I love to see what they know, and how they tackle new problems. I love to have lots of resources on hand, and like to leave them about. I do mention sitting with me to kill time working on a few probs in a book when there is interpersonal drama going on.
I feel like a traitor or that I am not a true "unschooler"
But then again I feel like if the kids want to do it sometimes, and that I respect when they say no, then we are all good.
I think I need to accept than I am a rabid strewer, and that I plant lots of stuff around for them to discover with an intention that it will be fun for them, whether mere exposure or a deft interest begins. That I find pleasure watching their thought processes as they muddle through a difficult prob, and I feel so excited when I see the joy on their faces when they have overcome a challenge. And as long as the learning is in their control and pace, it's fine, and I should stop torturing myself about it.
back and forth.
In my brain.
Am I doing enough?
Wanting proof too much?
Lack of trust?
That's where the labels throw me for a loop.
I need to stop reading stuff, and just do what feels right for all of us. I need to just work on cultivating mindfulness.
I think I worry about everybody else's needs and put mine on the back burner.
Well that just doesn't work.
All this thinking.
Makes me crazy.
Crazy as a loon.